Monday, July 25, 2011

Need a change from this burn out scene...

So I have been living life so well.. I had a trip to atlanta the other week... Just an overnight trip. And it was so fun. I need a break. Ended up going to Dave and Buster's. For those who do not know what that is, let me explain. It is a huge arcade game that any kid or adult child can get lost in. I love arcade games. I love shoot em up games lol. And the typical ones. I kick butt at air hockey and Pac Man. lol. I spent 40 dollars there alone lol. I know I am a geek. Then I went back to the hotel and got a little rest so I could come back for the knight's festivities.Literally! I went to a place called Medieval times. Oh yes. I want to live back in those times. It was amazing. Had a great meal, pretty good entertainment (i am a critic when it comes to reenactment and acting :) ), and a got a flower !!! woot woot!
 This Was my red and yellow night. I was in his section. So I cheered for him. :) He was a pretty good actor and strong in his fighting. (I am a nerd LOL)
 This was the black and white knight. I just love those colors so I had to take a pic!
And here was my flower that he threw me... I think it was because I was cheering so loud for him to win. :) I was so excited. I like flowers.. :)

 I truly do love atlanta. Its my second hometown. I also did a little shopping. Tried to keep that to a minumum because I hate it. But I tried. And now I get to back tomorrow and stay another night. And I am uber excited again. I am going to the American Idol Concert. Just hope noone lip sings. That irritates me. And I get to feel like I can breathe. I love driving. Turning up the music and losing myself, feeling the wind in my hair (whether the window is down or the A/C is on so high). I will take pics of this adventure and post them as well :)  Why do I feel so free on the road? From someone has run away before, I know it has a little to do with feeling free. Going to a place where there are less people who know me and do not know who I am inside. So they want to know more or they at least do not judge me for someone they assume me to be. And that is what I hope people understand. That one thing does not make me who I am . And just when you think you know me, you should think again.

I am not going to explain myself to anyone. But for once, I want someone to want things as bad as I did.. I want to feel wanted, and I want to feel safe. And I know and understand that for people in this world, that is asking alot. But I never thought it would be so hard.

Just when you feel like your falling
You learn to fly again on your own.
Just when you think someone is going to catch you,
you land on your feet.
Neither is bad. But it keeps you wanting to feel what falling all the way feels like...
Feeling those arms catch you and hearing the whisper "i have you, you are safe"
Instead of always catching yourself and being alone.
I hope you catch me because I am already falling.
If not I guess I still won't know.

Til next time... Love you all!


  1. wow a Knight ♥

    I am going there someday :)

    great post and hope your dreams come true soon.

    your friend alex

  2. Wow, sounds like a great time. Sorry if it was ruined by idiots, sounded like in the CS that you had a rough time. Stay dreaming. I know there are fantastic things out there for you.