Guilt

"It is easy to let go when holding on hurts so bad."

I was feeling guilty today. I cry and I wake up with sweats, and I worry and I feel sick. But with all that, it is still not as bad as I think I should feel. And when I was thinking about that today, I remembered this. No matter how hard it is, it is still a relief from what it was. Just wanted to say that because it was on my mind.

All I wanted was to collapse in someone's arms today and just cry and not move, but noone was there to catch me.